Here Comes Those Voices

I promised I will always be true to myself. Yes, indeed. Somehow, I commited an extraordinary act of crime today. Yes, I did so will you give me the drumrolls please? What did I do? Nothing! I just made a MySpace account! Boo me!

Well, actually ~ I had one before but due to some unwanted stalking, I closed it down. That's the problem with most social networking sites. I don't know what it is with certain individuals to actually bother others for so-called relationships when they are merely strangers. This kind of people, tsk! They're everywhere!

After what seems to be a while, I finally redo an account. Why oh why? Because my classmates have one...now I know it is so unlike me to bow down to trends but it's not the case here. Most of my classmates are not into Facebook so MySpace is really an alternative for me, should I be so sweet to keep in touch with them, yes.

Reality check: I don't like to waste my credits here and there...

So then, I was wondering...did I breach my own promise to myself?

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Nah!

Colourblind

Absence certainly makes the heart grows fonder - I did mention that before, didn't I? I admit, being a typical Sabahan in the Peninsular is not easy. Homesick is not surprising. For me to continue my studies here in UiTM, I've to consider a few things:

1. Language
2. Religion
3. Race
4. Food
5. Weather
6. Points of View

The first semester is coming to an end. May is approaching and I'm flying home next Sunday. Despite the minor complains I've been bugging my family with, I must say, I am proud of myself for being able to survive the semester - judging from the fact that I am a rather spoiled kid. Or simply a homebody.

I've two more papers to go...

Campus life...what of it? It is hard, very hard. If I could, I wanted to quit but I have my pride to uphold and that of my family. Life has been pretty awkward here. When I first came here, I was with Jef. We got separated by our groupings. He was in group D while I was in E. Jef was the only person I actually know back then. However, Max is in my group so I tried to be friendly but yeah, boys are boys :D

Looking around at my classmates, I observed the way they talk, act and walk. I listened to their patterns of speech and studied their body languages. I tried to understand how their minds work. And I was relieved that God has blessed me with them.

They are...different. The chemistry we shared with each other is different. They are nice to me and they try, they really do, to be nice with one another - which I think is very sweet of them. Frankly, they helped me to tackle all six conflicts I was having with myself (as mentioned above).

I really need to thank certain individuals - Anysz, Afiff, Stol, Kori, Tilap, Samak, Gotam, Fir, Polan, Lilo, Miera, Fizi, Id and Sofea :D - because they made my DMC1E experience fun! Of course, the others are awesome too :) I can't deny that.

My lecturers are superbly awesome too!

You know what, I guess I better head off to sleep now and save the dedication entry for later :D my eyes are getting heavy....yawnnnn ~

Up, Up and Away!

Two more weeks to go...

I need to go back home a.s.a.p. because this homesick thing is getting worst! ARGH! I mean, HOORAY!

Yours truly went to the city to get some coughing medicine and got a case of cramped leg instead. Not to forget that annoying pain in my head which hurts so much, as in, right now? And I'm darn hungry...why can't we just get the exam weeks over with??? I need to go home...badly!

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Why?

It's a long, long story.....

I just want to go home......*sigh*

I wunna play some freaking games online and offline, I wunna get my hands on all the music albums and muvees I've missed, I wunna go to Cathay 'cause I don't like the GSC here, I want my FRIENDS & FAMILY, I wunna eat real food (=.=).....

...I wunna be healthy. Campus makes me sick, literally. I've not been well for almost a month now :( beat that ~

Wish Upon the Empty Night Sky

To start off, the sky wasn't really that empty. It's just a bit dull.

I went to eat outside after BBM111 and surprisingly the mee ladna tasted better than the ones before. I still don't like it though. Hah! I went with Zahar since Jef wasn't in the mood (I wanted mee sup...I wanted to go to the Chinese restaurant =.=) and Zahar was the only one I could drag along that time. Hehe.

On my way back from dinner, I met Ain who told me of the gathering later tonight. A gathering by the lake can only mean one thing for our class :) so yeah ~

Anyway, we gathered by the lake around 9.00+ p.m. to celebrate Anysz's birthday - which is actually tomorrow. I didn't know the excuse they made this time was a CiTU revision gathering so when I came, I kinda blew the cover for him. But knowing Anysz, he probably knew it all along.

Seriously, it was no surprise at all. But we had fun. Real fun. Observe.

*cough cough*

Marhanis a.k.a. Anysz a.k.a. Rambut is my classmate. He was one of the first guys I talked to in class :) Somehow I feel comfortable around him and if I may say so, Anysz makes a great friend! Seriously. He's a hell bunch of fun to hang around with. He's vain and he blabs but that's what make him fun :D

Despite all the gooey water + flour + eggs combo the guys splatted on Anysz, we really had fun (although the Pa Guard disagree with us hehe). Again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANYSZ!!! Oh and, thanks for the tiramisu cake :P

Paper # 1

Ladies & gents,

Today, exactly at 2.15pm, yours truly will be at BG09, locked away from the world for two hours to face one of the course generals - BBM111. Gee ~ I wonder how I'll do.

Did I study? Am I studying? Of course I did! I am! That's why I can afford the time to blog right now :D teehee ~

Woe Oh Woe! Creeping Finals

Yes...

My final exams are creeping in on me. What have I done to arm myself against them? If you were expecting me to burn the midnight oil and suffocate myself in the pages, embrace disappointment then. That's not the way I do my revision.

How do I revise? Easy. Pay attention in class. Flip through the pages. Write down the same key points repeatedly on a piece of paper. Make fun of the key points. It's called relaxed-revision, or so I put it that way...after all that, all I have to do is sit for the finals as if I'm going home the very evening :D

That, fellas, is not a healthy revision method. Keep your potential-genius children away from me. Please.

Entry # 22

Again, ignore the random title.

As my status says it, I'm feeling much better now - health wise. Despite how extra oily my already-oily face feels like when I'm sick...eww ~ Anyway, I've been blog-hopping these past few days and wow! I can't believe all the things I stumble upon :D surfing has become an extended pastime for me. Oh yeah, sue me for the boredom!

One thing about the Peninsular is that Friendster and MySpace are still the reigning social networking sites around. No offense but I left Friendster because of urmm, it's "professionalism". And such was the case with MySpace.

Thing is, my classmates have a Space of their own so its pretty tempting to reregister myself but at the same time, my stubborness and pride (yeah, I always bring up about my pride - which is not really about how successful I am but how I manage to remain as a person of my own no matter what) gave me the big NO. Thank goodness! Hah! So I'm not going to reregister myself with MSP :D

'sides, I love Facebook :)

WTH am I talking about these social networks??? Bummer.

Oh whatever ~ this, ladies & gents, is a case of pure boredom. Period.

I'm counting my days till I'll be on my flight home: 3 weeks +

What I Cannot Change

When I read Gurl's latest post I wasn't surprised. Some people might be but not I. It's hard enough to gulp down the fact that you're actually alone, far from home and family, when you get into IPTA or IPTS.

It's hard when you're the kind of person whom the words "Home" and "Family" mean a lot to you - like myself.

And to think I've never even thought about it before.

I mean, I didn't realize it before.

In the past few months since I entered campus, I cried a few times. I cried at nights when I'm alone in my room because frankly, I miss home so much. In fact I cried the very night before I left for Malacca. I cried after Dad left the campus because I know I'm literally alone now. When I had that stupid misunderstanding with a fellow Sabahan, I cried because I was worried. Though that wasn't appreciated...when I was sick for a fortnight thanks to the camping, I cried because I hated being sick when I am alone. I cried occasionally when I am alone because I miss G. I miss Nyon2 and Didun. I miss Mom and Dad. I miss talking with Uncle Marcus. I miss the occasional steamboats.

I miss home.

And to top all that, I hated being a burden to my family. I know Ono and Yaya are thinking about building houses now, especially Yaya who's gonna have a second child this July. Recession is still around. It actually kills me whenever I want to withdraw cash from the ATM, knowing where the money comes from. And to actually ask for extra would literally cost me my pride.

I would rather sit at home and help my siblings take care of their children. I love kids now, thanks to someone :) but at the same time I can't deny that I'm very ambitious. I want to work and earn a lot so I can buy stuffs for my family, my parents, just like my older siblings did. I want to be able to bring them out on vacations, just to thank them for raising us up.

Sometimes I wish I was born in a filthy rich family where my parents doesn't really care about me and how I live my life as long as they give me my monthly 10k allowance, excluding any extra I'd ask for. I wish I had that life so I won't feel so damn guilty...

My family loves me. I love them too.

That's why this heart's been aching to go home...

'tis Day I Say

Last January, after Dad left for home, I spent my remaining days of MMS feeling annoyed. As much as I am annoyed, I didn't want to make a fuss of it. This happens occasionally.

Anyway...

The first time I met this guy over here was on the 1st of January, when cuzzy Jef decided to introduce us to our senior (least did I expect that he was a former DPM LEO). 1st impression? "Oh bummer!"

Long story short, Noel seemed to hang out with us every weekend, whenever we meet at church. He was also the one who brought debate to us (which I left because it just wasn't my cup of tea, gomen!). And although Noel was pretty much a blabber, I can't help but giggle whenever he and cuzzy Jef go on each other's words.

He's been a big brother to us, right from the start. And for that, I thank him because seriously, it's good when you befriend someone from your own hometown. Makes home feel a bit closer in this land of strangers.

So then...happy birthday, Noel! If I were to make a long entry about you, the folks at home would start bombarding me stupid questions which is irrelevant, of course!

Oh, by the way, you owe me a birthday treat :D

For Goodness' Sake!

Oh my, oh gee!

*The dog ate my blog posts*

Yeah right...Though I promised to be good to this blog, I seemed to be slacking - A LOT. Now what kind of excuse can I say to sound oh so innocent again? Maybe I should say, "The laptop hates me so he deleted my blog posts."

Cool! And suffer a notebook crash after that huh? Not so cool...

I guess I was just too lazy to update because Blogger has been so mean to me recently (there goes the finger-pointing again, so much for being goody-goody). Still, the lamest reason (which is to blame the hosting server) is in fact true, unfortunately.

And knowing myself, I know this is bound to happen...

Still, I'm here to finish what I started (not literally).

Or should I say, to continue what I started.

Bummer.

I'm having migraines.

Whatever! I'm back to blogging again. Hopefully.

April Full

I can't believe it's April! My last update was on March 14...

Don't blame me. Google won't let me log in to my account so I can't update. That, and all the stupid stuffs happening around me. Let's just say I tripped and I fell but I'm on my feet again now. Since this is a family blog, I can't blab about what's happened here. We all know the Internet is a very, very dangerous place (thanks to CSC134!)...

It's April.

My finals begin on the 20th - BBM111. Ends on May 10th. I'm going home the next day...woohoo! Sigh ~

Frankly, I'm thinking of reverting back to Wordpress. Though even if I do, it will be a private blog. A really private one where I can crap about stuffs. Then again, probably not. Life@flight is still going strong, as long as I can survive this stupid hell.

It's April.

I'm coming home.